WEEK 1 – RECOVERING A SENSE OF SAFETY
– Shadow Artists : no early support, encouragement => shadow artists. Purpose of week 01 is to move from the realms of shadows into the light of creativity. Shadow artists must learn to take themselves seriously and with gentle, deliberate efforts nurture their artist child.
Protecting the artist child within : your artist is a child : learning to let create is like learning to walk -> crawling, baby steps, falling…
Mistakes are necessary, stumbles are normal : you’re looking for progress, not perfection.
Creative recovery <=> marathon training.
Give yourself permission to be a bad artist, a beginner.
« But you know how old I’ll be by the time I learn to really…. ? » : Yes the same age you’ll be if you don’t ! So let’s start !
-> Unconscious response to internalized negative beliefs.
This week we’ll work at uncovering our negative beliefs and discarding them. Commonly held ennce. If internalized resistance is the enemy within, what follows is some very effective weaponry : so TRY IT BEFORE DISCARDING IT OUT OF HAND.
You can defer to true genius, but not to self-promotion genius : you could do it better… if only you would let yourself do it. Affirmations will help you do it.
An affirmation is a positive statement of (positive) belief and if we can become 1/10 as good at positive self-talk as we are at negative self-talk, we’ll notice an enormous change.
When we start working with affirmations they may feel dumb, hokey, embarrassing. We can easily bludgeon ourselves with negative affirmations but saying nice things about ourselves is notoriously hard to do.
Try picking an affirmation and rite it ten times in a row. While you’re busy doing that, your Censor will start to object, objections will pop out -> these are your blurts.
You’ll be amazed at the rotten things your subconscious will blurt out. Write them down : make a list of your personal blurts.
Detective work : where do your blurts come from ? Time-travel : break your life in 5-year increments and list by name your major influences in each time block.
Each of your blurts has held you in bondage. Each of them must be dissolved. Use your affirmations after your MP. Also use any of the creative affirmations listed (pp. 36-37).
Do not reread these pages or allow anyone else to read them.
Be sure to work with your affirmations of choice and your blurts at the end of each day’s MP. Convert all blurts into positive affirmations.
2 – Take yourself on an AD.
3 – Time-travel : list 3 old enemies of your creative self-worth. Be as specific as possible. This is your monster hall of fame. It is always necessary to acknowledge creative injuries and grieve them. Otherwise they become creative scar tissue and block your growth.
4 – Time-travel : select and write our one horror story from your monster hall of fame. You do not need to write long or much, just jot down whatever details come back to you.
It may be cathartic to draw a sketch of your old monster and trash / X it.
5 – Write a letter to the editor in your defense. Mail it to yourself.
6 – Time-travel : list 3 old champions of your creative self-worth. It’s your hall of champions. Even if you disbelieve a compliment, record it : it may well be true.
Write it out and decorate it.
7 – Time-travel : select and write out one happy piece of encouragement. Write a thank you letter, mail it to yourself or long-lost mentor.
8 – Imaginary lives : if you had 5 other lives, what would you do in each of them ? Whatever occurs to you, jot it down, don’t over think this.
The point is to have more fun than you might be having in this one. Look over your list and select one and do something you’d do if you were living that life (ie pick a guitar if you want to be a guitarist).
9 – Add any more injuries and monster that swim back to you to your list as they occur to you. Turn each negative into an affirmative positive.
10 – Take your artist for a walk.
Last day of your week.
The purpose of check-ins is to give you a journal of your creative journey.
1 – How many days this week did you do your MP ? How was this for you ?
2 – Did you do your AD ? What did you do ? How did it feel ?
3 – Were there any other issues this week that you consider significant for your recovery ? Describe them.